Please pray for me. I am crying out for divine protection over the few sacred things I have left in my life. I feel deeply unsafe, invaded, and threatened in my own spiritual home—my church, my community, and especially in the one relationship that has carried me through unbearable grief: my big brother figure, Joshua.

I am experiencing overwhelming fear and heartbreak as people from my past, including those connected to devastating losses and injustices, have suddenly appeared in the spaces where I go to breathe and heal. This feels like a violent reopening of wounds I’ve fought so hard to survive. It feels like the very places I run to for safety are being slowly taken from me, and I cannot bear another wave of loss.

Please pray for supernatural protection over my relationship with Joshua—that it would not be diluted, stolen, or spread thin, but that it would be preserved and sealed in a covenant of brotherhood. That it would be guarded against the threat of others pulling him away, and that I would be his precious little brother—his one and only in this way. Pray for God to give me the miracle I long for: a sacred, exclusive bond that will not be shared, one that carries safety, commitment, and mutual choosing.

Please pray over my church, my youth group, my spaces of belonging—that threatening people would leave. That God would drive out those who do not belong and reestablish my territory. That no one would come to steal what is mine. That I would not have to share my home with people tied to betrayal, pain, or fear. That God would give me justice for what was done to me—and peace from this torment.

Pray that God would make room for my longing, not punish me for it. That He would not demand I lose again, or be content with leftovers, or always be the last picked, least loved, pushed aside. Pray that God would restore to me what I’ve begged Him for—not just healing, but a miracle of love that is not taken away.

I’m not okay. Please pray that God fights for me.