Please pray for me. I am in deep need of breakthrough, clarity, and healing in my heart. I carry an intense and lifelong ache for deep, covenantal love—the kind that sees me, chooses me, and doesn’t leave. I have experienced many layers of loss, neglect, rejection, and abandonment in my life, and my heart has held onto a sacred dream: that God would give me one person, one brother in the Lord, who would love me in a way that feels exclusive, protected, and unshared—a soul-deep, Christ-centered relationship that reflects God’s covenant love, and the covenant that David and Jonathan had, that depth and love, that kind of loyalty.
Right now, I am deeply burdened with fear and grief. I feel like this dream is slipping through my fingers, and I am constantly tormented by anxiety, jealousy, and fear that someone else is being chosen instead of me. The person I love and look up to as my big brother, as family — someone who has poured into me, held me, seen me, and spoken into my life—is drawing closer to others, and I feel invisible, forgotten, and unchosen. I feel like I’m dying inside.
Please pray for supernatural breakthrough in this relationship. That the Lord would protect it fiercely, bring clarity to both of our hearts, and restore a deep sense of safety and belonging in our bond. Pray that God would remove relational threats and distractions that bring confusion, and instead draw us into a beautiful, exclusive relationship marked by commitment, gentleness, and spiritual unity.
Most of all, please pray that I would know with certainty that this desire is not wrong, sinful, or selfish—but that it was planted in me by God Himself. That He is fighting for me. That He sees me. And that He will send clear signs that He is working behind the scenes and bringing the desires of my heart to fulfillment.
I’m holding on with everything in me. Please lift me up in prayer. I need God’s intervention more than ever.
